Sunday, September 26, 2010

The Bureaucrat

(Thanks to blogadda)



Everyone loved to dream, so did I. I think I did imbibe a difference, by scripting a different tale. Born with a silver spoon? No. Neither did I have to learn under a street light. ‘Middle class’ is the term. Perhaps it is this cousin who exhausted her bank account for making herself look better, who inspired me to strive elevating to the higher class. Luxury cars often fascinated me during my long walks towards work. The money saved by each walk would never add up to get me one. Forefathers apparently were lazy enough, for they didn’t even leave me a legacy to boast about. All that would deter me from wanting to jump out of this cattle class was the serenity that often filled my mind. It didn’t take the transient dreams too long a time to win their battle over my love affair with serenity. A devil walked in to my life; shook my hands. Short cut to richness would lure any sane mortal, I reasoned. Time took a faster leap. My eyes just blinked. It was all going to happen. The brand new smile that I gave birth to let me bypass conscience. Bureaucracy turned out to be a fun. A sharp brain; timely silence; seasonable grins all favoured me. I played with red tapes.

The green-eyed monsters were more powerful. The current location from where I write this is just a proof of how strong they are. Trust me; this was never the victory of truth. The level of corruption that I exercised was weaker than what they could. Or, perhaps I was just a novice. Well, penitence doesn’t flood my words. That doesn’t however mean that I would ride along the same path as soon as I get released from here. My love, believe me when I say that my heart is still pure. I know you will. Well who should read me better? When I say that I would not dare to turn deaf to your thoughts anymore, it is recommended that you take it as a promise, at least for now. Life is complicated. Too many neuronal circuits are firing from within, so let me conclude for now. See you soon.

With lots of love,

The guy who still holds your heart.

(For those who came in late: Manipulator, Beast)

30 comments:

Akash Kay Sajith said...

You sound more like a Business Man than a Bureaucrat :P I think this is a very common Dream among us Middle-Class brats! Well narrated Boiii :)

totalliemeh said...

like i said-good language..but bureaucrat? that doesnt seem to fit, somehow.i dont know.

i still liked manipulator better.

Aparna said...

Wanting more finally leads to unending misery in life. The root cause of not feeling happy and contented is greed. Greed for power, richness, luxury, beauty, acceptance, wealth and so on. Very common epidemic among lower Middle class. We lack Self Control

You've made a very good Point here 1/2 Doc, "Life is complicated. Too many neuronal circuits are firing from within" I Like that! keep it up!

Aparna said...

@Akash True, it sounds more like a Business Man than a Bureaucrat. But, Ain't both the same, the inner sense?

Sangeetha Sridhar said...

Well begun setting of middle-class thought process. However the turn of events are hazy. Perhaps tats the reason why bureaucrat / businessman thin line blurs.

The last para is a sign is failure rather than a sign of maturity of events & resulting emotions.The reference to 'My love' confession watersheds the grip of the matter; turning it more like a love story ending.Better indication would current state of determination / realisations.

Priya Joyce said...

Good one...
speaks loud enough that illegitimate paths to success n money dun work!

A person who's had enough of all that finally now wants to get back to normal pace of life...back to the sweet affectionate love life...

I guess tats well said :) subtly tho :))

totalliemeh said...

btw- am glad you didn't blame a girl,usually guys turn greedy due to a girl no? kanakam moolam, kaamini moolam...:P

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@akash

Business man, bureaucrat all's kinda same na ;) Cheers bro.

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@totalliemeh

;) Hmm hope 2 come up with something better than Manipulator!!! Thank God u luvd the language. I still remember you shooting bullets at me for an older post...sentence construction etc. Even that time, Manipulator was driving in comparison. ;)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@aparna

The product called MAN is not programmed to be satisfied till his last breath ;)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@aparna

It's a relief that u didn't 'smell' another beast in me this time. he he

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@sangeetha

wow wow...that's one cool review!!! Hats off!!! U r inviting trouble. More assignments comin up ;)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@priya

well, don't trust him ;)

AfsalJalal said...

i lykd d usage f 'MiddleClass'

V. Archana said...

First of all,Let me clear my throat. Ahem.. Ahem... :-|

It sounded to me like a middle class man(coz he had no legacies to be shared that of his forefathers nor was the money he saved,sufficient enough to buy a luxurious car)who wanted to be in serenity -(may be getting detached from all the worldly stuffs-a sage i would say ;) :P ) Happened to meet a green eyed devil,who instead,made the man a bureaucrat :P :P

Conclusion: middle class man - wanted to be a sage :P but became a bureaucrat(hope not like the ones in the british-indian times) :P :P

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@afsal

;) n welcome 2 my blog bro

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@ARCHANA

ahem ahem ahem ahem ;) lol cheers

Athu said...

nice dream !!and nice story also .. keep going :):)

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@athu

thanks athu ;)

Nikhil said...

Nice writing.. but didn't like the title.
All the best

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@nikhil

;) point noted ;)

SMRITI said...

BLANK! O_O Plus, I broke my glasses and I'm blind as a bat during daylight. :P

Kindly excuse till I come back with glasses and clearer vision (And mind :) )

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@smriti

*searching for a knife* ;)

callezee said...

You gone for the next step then the Bureaucrat.

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@callezee

;) Frankly I didn't get that ! oops

Enterprise Mobility Management said...

Nice....
You line more like business man...

k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@ Enterprise

he he ;) *clears throat*

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k.ø.c.h.ü said...

@jo

;) cheers

Anwesa said...

Back here after a long ( really long ) time. Crisply narrated.